Illusive…
February 16, 2011 § Leave a comment
I’m terribly afraid of something, words cannot describe… lest there’s a feeling.
It overwhelms me all at once, like the tide ….and among the fury of its waves, I drown… somewhat hopelessly.
I feel its fight, to the core… using every bit of strength I have…
I find a million different flaws to halt me and a million and one reasons more…
And amidst moments of some unknown to me emotion …of utter weakness,
I curl up next to him …into nothing …and feel endlessly.
…and then awaken to gusts of cold wind that blow through me.
I think back to all the others I’ve pushed away. This same way.
I wonder if the lesson here is to fall…
or if the ability to escape, unscathed, deserves applause.
For in the end, this heart, while battered, is not a heart at all…
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